The email fiasco has taken the wind out of my sails

I have to admit, my recent email fiasco has really taken the wind out of my Emacs sails. If I'm using Emacs, I want to use Notmuch. If I'm using Notmuch, I want to use it on both Macs. If I can't do that, I kind of don't want to use Emacs. Those things don't necessarily follow, but that's how I'm feeling.